Let Me Love Without Brakes With No Breaks
“In a word, what I’m saying is, Grow up. You’re kingdom subjects. Now live like it. Live out your God-created identity. Live generously and graciously toward others, the way God lives toward you.” Matthew 5:48 The Message
I came across this scripture this morning. I giggled at the first half and then quickly sobered up and leaned in to grasp the admonishment contained in the last sentence. As I did, I thought of my husband and kids…those closest to me. The ones who get to see all of me, the real me…the ones who get the full monty…the good, the bad and yes, the ugly me. I got so checked…and then I became so grateful.
Grateful that God so loves me that He checks, then redirects me. It’s so easy to step out of our houses and enter the world wearing our “faith” face, our “everything is peachy in my world” face, our “I love everyone” face and then return home tired and dusty, remove the mask and take for granted the very blessings God has given us. The family hand picked by the Master.
Lately I’ve noticed how rapidly my children have grown, how in a blink they have matured and how I am “seconds” away, it seems, to being an empty nester. HOW DID THAT HAPPEN!!!!!????
I have questioned myself, doubted myself and cried out to God asking Him to slow down the process….let me squeeze every minute that I have left with my babies; let me have a few do-overs. Let them remember all the good and forget all those forgettable moments. The ones reserved only for the ones I “love!!!”
Let me not be so busy and overwhelmed that I miss connecting with my husband.
Let me not sweat the small stuff…those things that look large at the time, but with time fade to nothingness. Let me love them deeply, lavishly, unashamedly. Let me focus on each of them individually and not focus on what is wrong, but on everything that is so right.
Let me live generously and graciously toward them, Lord, the way you live toward me. Let me be slow in anger and quick in forgiveness; let my words be uplifting, encouraging, healing; let me show them mercy and kindness; let my love not be conditional…let me love without brakes and with no breaks.
Just the way You love me.