O God, I have tasted Thy goodness and it has both satisfied me and made me thirsty for more.
I am painfully conscious of my need for further grace.
I am ashamed of my lack of desire.
O God, the Triune God, I want to want Thee.
I long to be filled with longing. I thirst to be made more thirsty still.
Show me Thy glory, I pray Thee, so that I may know Thee indeed.
Begin in mercy a new work of love within me.
Say to my soul, “Rise up my love, my fair one, and come away.”
Then give me grace to rise and follow Thee from this misty lowland where I have wandered so long.
This A.W. Tozer prayer is how chapter six of Francis Chan’s book entitled “Crazy Love” began and I came to a screeching halt as I was plowing through that book. I stayed right there and read it again and again. It resonated so for me. If we are being totally honest, every one of us has been in that misty lowland wandering and waiting, having lost that “loving feeling.” We can get so busy in life and in ministry that we forget that One…our first love. We can be so involved pouring out that we forget to refill, recharge. I’m in the refilling stage, getting reacquainted with my first love, enjoying the quiet times…not doing…just being. Being available when He speaks, listening intently…removing myself from stuff and desiring Him, thirsting for Him, longing for Him. I’ve heard Him say “come away with me,” and so I will.